Dealing with depression and modivation post-stroke

This is probably one of the most difficult things to deal with post-stroke, granted I don't have any physical deficits so I can't really speak for others. I suffered from depression prior to my stroke and now it has just gotten worse, especially since the part of my brain that helps me control me emotions (no I don't know specifically which part the doctor never told me), got damaged badly I will literally start crying for no reason. Depression makes motivation even harder, especially when you're already so stressed from school. For example, I tried to play guitar and I've been playing for a few years and never gotten that good at it, but since I want to be a musician I thought that I should probably start working on it again. So I try and usually after 20 minutes I give up because I'm so frustrated with not being able to get anything done. I talked to my boyfriend about it and he decided to get on Skype and help me figure out how to play the song I was learning. Honestly, that's the best way to get motivated and get something done, find someone who is willing enough to be patient with you and will actually help you with whatever it is you need help with and go over whatever you need to for as long as you can stand, if you need a break, take it then go back to it after. Honestly, even though I was in a shit mood today, after having Matt help me with this problem, and it helped me so much. Now, I'm just waiting for my show to come on so that I can eat and then die doing homework. D;

Fun days

This really doesn't have much to do with stroke but it kinda does too. Today my roommate and I went out to get her nails done for her birthday. We were close to the mall so I thought "hey lets go to the mall just for fun, not to buy anything, just to get out." But, of course we bought stuff (hair dye and shoes and piercings) and it felt really good to get out and do stuff. I told her we should do this at least once a month now just like a "roomie date." Then we went out to eat and just got to talk without worrying about school for a good 5 hours. It was great and I felt a little better about being back at school because I absolutely dreaded the thought of coming back (I just wanted to stay home and work). I'm really hoping we can do this more often because I really need it. I'm really hoping for a good semester. Oh and this is kind off topic but sometime in the next maybe 7 months I'll meet my boyfriend which makes me really excited for this semester. *crosses fingers*

Introduction

So I'm not really sure what to do with blogs, but I thought it'd be good for maybe inspirational uses. I'll start by introducing myself. My name is Lindsay and I am a 19 (almost 20) year old stroke survivor. In June of 2014, I suffered from a ischemic stroke. No one really thought it was a stroke until about 10 hours after I got to the ER (except my dad who brought me). Everyone was saying "she's too young" blah blah blah. But, honestly now I want to use my life to show that this can happen to anyone. I was completely healthy, my problem was that I had a hole in my heart that no one knew about (thankfully I got it fixed). I don't really have anything else to say right now. But I just wanted to introduce myself so you know the person who is telling you what its like to be a stroke survivor in college dealing with college-y and life stuff.